This morning I weighed in at 187.4. Almost a pound. I will take it and be happy with it.
I am still having a hard time getting back into the gym. My eating choices have not been stellar but, they were decent. I did a lot of thinking about why I have been having a hard time. It comes down to making a choice. I haven't been making that choice for myself for a while now. Yes, life has been hard lately, adjusting to working full time, sinus infections for all three of us, Lily's hospitalization, falling behind on my household duties, etc. But, it comes down to a choice. Last week was a normal, healthy week. I chose not to go to the gym, not a single day. I chose many other things that I shouldn't have. I need to get to a place where I am ready to make positive choices for myself in order for me to continue down my weight loss journey. The weight is coming off just at a much slower pace than it was. I am not to the point where the weight comes off slow because there isn't much more to lose, it's because I am not making the same choices I was making before. I am not working nearly as hard as I was. A huge motivator for me was the Biggest Loser Weight Loss Challenge I participated in. I kicked butt at it because I wanted to win. It's over now, has been over for a while and I feel like that is a big reason why I haven't been trying as hard. I know it's not right for me to depend on positive reinforcement to maintain my weight loss. I have to find strength within me to keep myself motivated, to get myself to the gym everyday.
I need to go back to posting my weekly goals. I haven't done as good of a job as that lately. Oh my, I have been lacking in so many areas. Here are my weekly goals: complete my bible study 4 days a week, track my food, go the gym 5 days, not eat sugar, and get 3 outdoor runs in. I will do my very best to meet all of my goals. Someone, please hold me accountable.
In some good news. I completed my first 5K on Saturday. I will post a separate post about just the run tomorrow. It deserves to have it's own post.
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Congrats on the 5K! What a great accomplishment.
ReplyDeleteIs there anyway you can reach out to your co-workers, friends, neighbors, other mommies to do a Biggest Loser Challenge? If you know something like this motivates you, maybe you could find something to get involved in or start your own...with all that extra time you have. =)
OH!! I am so glad I visited you today, Holly! I've been mulling over something for several days now. And you just gave the answer:
ReplyDelete" I have to find strength within me to keep myself motivated, to get myself to the gym everyday."
Of course! I kept thinking about how great I do when I am involved with a Challenge. Then, when it's over, it gets harder. Still doable, but just harder.
And of course, you are right. The challenges are "external" motivation. But ultimately, we must develop our own "internal" motivation. Our own "why do this"... and nurture it so it is stronger than any challenge, cuz it's with us 24/7!
Thanks for sharing that, I really needed to be reminded of that!!
Loretta
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Loretta, so glad my words helped you because I am still having a hard time owning up the this intrinsic motivation thing myself.
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