Weigh In Monday

This morning I weighed in at 190.6 pounds. Woohoo! I can't believe I am SO close to the 180s! I don't feel like I was in the 190s long at all. I hope I am in the 180s for the same amount of time or less for that matter. But, I need to just get there first. At some point it's going to get much harder for me to lose weight and I am bracing myself for that.

How did the week go despite my 3.4 pound lose? Terrible actually. I have no idea how I lost any weight and how I didn't GAIN weight! I had the intense craving for BREAD. So, I had about 3 pieces of 80 calorie a slice bread with real butter, just a bit though. The bread was really good healthy bread but, still, it was bread, bread that I should not have had. I also ate some food at my new job that I shouldn't have. I had a piece of pizza and a couple other things I don't remember exactly. The worse part about my week was I only made it to the gym once! Yikes! I seriously could not get out of bed. Part of that I discovered was I was getting sick. I am currently sick. It's awesome...NOT! I hate feeling sick, as I am sure everyone does. But, it happens every time I either start work after a break or in this case, start a new job. My daughter is sick too. It usually takes 3 weeks for our colds to go away. I also have a confession. Saturday night, I wasn't feeling well and just wanted some ice cream. So, I stopped at Dairy Queen and picked up 2 blizzards for my husband and me. They were smalls though and they were also so delicious and I don't regret it one bit! Ok...another confession. I also made no bake cookies and ate quite a few of them. So, as you can see, I really should have gain weight and I do not deserve such a great lose this week. I did notice that I thought about everything I ate and why I was eating it. I feel like that awareness says a lot. I wasn't just eating to eat.

During the week I, also, realized I have been way too hard on myself. I think that may have been part of the problem of why I was eating so poorly. I was tired of being so hard on myself, beating myself up over every little mistake. This week was definitely proof that I don't have to beat myself up. That I can have a couple indulgences and still make progress on my weight loss. But, most importantly I need to be aware of what I am eating and why. I need to be aware of the foods that I put into my body, what they are made of and approximately how many calories each food is worth. It's mindful eating and ultimately I would really like to live mindfully in every area of my life. All in due time.

I don't have much to say because I didn't really workout. The one day I did workout I did my normal weight training then running. I am up to week 7 in the C25K. I can't believe I can run for 25 minutes straight! I feel pretty proud of this feat! I am definitely doing my first 5K on July 10th AND I am highly considering doing my first 10K on 10/10/10. I LOVE running. It makes me feel so great about myself. It's such a mental thing for me and pushing through all my negativity I give myself in my head means so much to me. I am stronger than I have ever known myself to be and that is a great feeling.

There is only one more week in the 6 Week Weight Loss Challenge I joined up. I have a pretty good chance of winning the whole thing. I am super excited. I really have to NOT blow it this week. It's kind of hard to say for sure where I stand because a few people aren't weighing in. So, maybe they will all blow me out of the water next week at our final weigh in.

Ok well, here's to hitting the 180s tomorrow! I hope, I hope, I hope! I will try and do the same as I did when I entered into wonderland. We will see how time goes. It seems that I don't have much of it any more now that I am working full time.

How are all of you? How was your week? What indulgences do you allow yourself to have if any at all?